I love this creature.
It's a papillon (in French). Or a chmetterling, in German.
Whatever it's called all over the world, I call it 'The Butterfly'.It has colourful delicate wings and it's totally harmless. Well, it originates from something that looks like big, fat worms called catepillars and many of you know that I have worm-like-thingy-phobia. What I'm telling you is that I like butterflies when they look like.. butterflies.. okay. Not the caterpillars. Caterpillars make me puke.
*puking*
After the caterpillars undergo complete metamorphosis, they look like these!
I'm probably addicted to butterflies but it's too early to notice that. A few years back, I bought this pretty steel butterfly pendant and I've been wearing it on and off since then. I found it in my jewellery box yesterday (not that I have loads of jewelleries!) and God, it struck me like lightning. Butterflies are so beautiful!
My pendant. (:
I would want to have a swimming pool with that butterfly shape in the future. Future hubby, work hard to make my dream comes true! It's not an easy job, haha.
I want this. SERIOUSLY.
Ramblings by,
I don't know what to worry about. Is it my SPM. Or my body weight. Or my shopping addiction. Or my scholarship applicationS (notice the plural). Big sigh. So many things to do..
I was in school today for pecutan SPM, Bio and Maths. Deena and I were not even in the hall the whole morning because we were busy chasing after teachers to get their signatures and filling in the expected grades for SPM in our forms. At the end of the day..phew, what a relief because we managed to get everything done before 12.30 pm. We worked hard for that okay! We even left early from Maths class (with teacher's permission) to find the PK HEM. Some of the students who just knew about this forecast result thingy was rushing to get their forms as well and I can tell you that I'm happy mine is already settled. Nothing to worry about now. :) Well nothing besides that scholarship application stuffs which I really despise. I mean, who would write essays to 'sell' themselves? I wouldn't. But this is an emergency call so no matter what, I have to do it.
After all the tiring part is done, Deena and I headed to PM and shopped for school supplies. We bought these really pretty paper clips and bookmarks! Something to be remembered in the future. The paper clips are very cute, check them out:
Then we went to McD again and had our lunch there. Deena had Spicy Chicken McDeluxe and I decided to try the black pepper one instead. Mine was undeniably tasty, I would want to buy another set or burger. FYI, I've been eating McD for three weeks in a row. Yes, every Friday since two weeks ago. Now I'm worried about my body weight. =.=
Mine, AWESOME. YUMMYYYY.
Ours. (: We were done anyway, those are empty boxes!
This is.. =.= Deena's job.
She loves that Spicy seasoning so much, she would want make a juice out of it.
Sheesh Deena, this thing is SPICY you know.
There's a reason why it's called SPICY SHAKER FRIES.At last, we went window shopping and I bought Cappucino Cheese from Secret Recipe. Loveeeee it! I've been craving for that piece of cake for months!
Muah!TTFN, bye!Yours, ps; TTFN - Ta Ta For Now. I'm talking Paris Hilton's language now (:
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage:
Um. Milo+anlene. Eh beverage ke tu?
2. Last phone call:
Abah.
3. Last text message:
Haha tak takut pun :P U tak tdo lg ke budak nak p skolah, ahaha.
4. Last song you listened to:
Keep Forgetting - Jojo.
5. Last time you cried:
Can't remember!
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice:
Yes.
7. Been cheated on:
YES.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it:
Yes.
9. Lost someone special:
Losing him right now. Okay lost him d.
10. Been depressed :
I'm normal. Yes.
11. Been drunk and threw up:
Nope.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. White.
13. Black.
14. Green.
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend:
Yes! And lost some of them too.
16. Fallen out of love:
Hahaha YES.
17. Laughed until you cried:
Not really.
18. Met someone who changed you:
Definitely.
19. Found out who your true friends were:
:)
20. Found out someone was talking about you:
No I think.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list:
Hahahaha.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life:
Loads lah!
23. How many kids do you want to have:
3 :) Eldest should be a son.
24. Do you have any pets:
Fishes. Goreng pun sodap.
25. Do you want to change your name:
Yes! On second thought. No.
26. What did you do for your last birthday:
I slept allright.
27. What time did you wake up today:
5.15 am.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night:
Snoring real loud.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for:
SPM!
30. Last time you saw your Mother:
Just now.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life:
I wish I'm a little bit thinner. And prettier. And that I'm married to someone awesome like Orlando Bloom? Okay scratch those things. I'm fine the way it is.
32. What are you listening to right now:
None.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:
Sapa tu?
34. What's getting on your nerves right now:
These q's.
35. Most visited webpage:
Blogger. FB.
36. Whats your real name:
Nor Sofea Asyiqin.
37. Nicknames:
Sofea. Piah. Fea.
38. Relationship Status:
IAR with Noor Faris.
39. Zodiac sign:
Taurus.
40. Male or female?:
Female fatale.
41. Elementary?:
Blueberry's.
42. Middle School?:
SKSI.
43. High school/college?:
SGGS.
44. Hair colour:
Black.
45. Long or short:
Medium. Getting longer each day.
46. Height:
-
47. Do you have a crush on someone?:
:)
48: What do you like about yourself?:
Idk! My brain?
49. Piercings:
Yup.
50. Tattoos:
Lagi gi-laa.
51. Righty or lefty:
Righty.
FIRSTS:
52. First surgery:
Never.
53. First piercing:
Taktau.
54. First best friend:
I'm not sure.
55. First sport you joined:
Oh. Em basketball?
56. First vacation:
Langkawi kut, idk dulu2 mia cter.
58. First pair of trainers:
=.=
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: No
60. Drinking: No
61. I'm about to: Go to bed.
62. Listening to: -
63. Waiting for : His reply.
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids?: NAAKKKKKKKKKKKK!
65. Get Married?: NAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!
66. Career?: Pharmacist. Please oh please.
WHICH IS BETTER (DATING):
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: Neither.
69. Shorter or taller: Taller.
70. Older or Younger: Older. But right now, younger lah :)
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.
72. Nice smile or nice hair: Smile. And hair.
73. Sensitive or loud: Both.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: In between the line.
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: No
77. Drank hard liquor: No.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: I dont even have one.
79. Sex on first date: No.
80. Broken someone's heart: Yes.
82. Been arrested: Of stealing someone's heart? :)
83. Turned someone down: Hmmm.
84. Cried when someone died: LOL.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself:
Mestila.
87. Miracles:
Yes.
88. Love at first sight:
(:
89. Heaven:
Yeap.
90. Santa Claus:
Tak.
91. Kiss on the first date:
Nuh.
92. Angels:
Hee they're everywhere.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:
Yep.
95. Did you sing today?:
Yes.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?:
Yeah.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?:
Early of this year?
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?:
Idk.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?:
No, I'll bear the risk :)
100. Posting this as 100 truths?
Yeah yeah yeah.
SPM is just around the corner. Okay cut the crap about SPM ALREADY. Ramble about something else that might not interest anyone except your gayp. Here you go.
Dear Circus Rat.
I want to crush your teeth, flatten your handsome face, pull out your ears and feed them to the monkeys, grind your intestines, chop your balls and boil it with chicken soup as much as I want to pull you into my arms and kiss your soft, full, red lips. I loved you. I love you. Scratch that last. I just..I don't know. I'm numb. I tried and still trying, my best to despise you but my attempts failed miserably. I don't know what or how you did to me. You turned my whole world upside down and left without telling me how to make everything back to normal again. However after some time, I learned to survive on my own. Then you came back. And left me again. And came back.
Maybe you think that this whole messing-the-girl's-heart thing is another game. Maybe you flirt with her before because you were bored. She did make you laugh at times and you do enjoy her company. Sometimes, you smile when her face randomly appears in your mind. You shrug off the thought because it seems silly to think about a GIRL. And maybe sometimes you realize that the girl 'likes' you more than what you expected. Maybe it's just your imagination but it doesn't look that way. Maybe you felt sorry once or twice. Maybe you feel like telling her that you're sorry but then decided not to because it would hurt your so-called ego. Maybe at the end you do realize that you've fallen for her. But admitting something that big is just too hard right..
I don't know, I'm confused about you boy. What I know now is that I can't let myself get hurt for another time. I am a believer that everything happens for some reasons. Maybe we are not destined to be together. Maybe I'm just not good enough to be with someone like you? Maybe you're looking for someone with better qualities. Or maybe you have found that someone after all? I won't be asking these straight to your face. I wouldn't have the chance to. And I..wouldn't want to know the answer. It'll hurt allright.
Squishy, this is the last time that I will ever write about you. I'm getting over you, FOR REAL, this time. I know I said this a few times but this is my final decision and I'll do it. I can. I can if I put in a little bit more effort than last time. I loved you and nothing can change that. But for now, I'll just do what's best for me. May you lead a good life. I do hope you'll find happiness and probably, love, in someone else. So long Squishy. :)
Dear Baby Boo.
I'm sorry for not being honest to you about my feelings. I was just bemused about this whole situation. Leaving all the things that happened to me for the last five months is definitely something very challenging. But I tried you know, I do. But I was never serious about it. I know it's my fault and maybe you feel that I've been cheating on you. But trust me..I never had the intention to hurt you. I'm trapped. This is the hardest choice that I have to make all my life.
And finally I chose you. I chose you baby. You're just so undeniably sincere to me since the first time we know each other. And the age gap..it never bothers you. You don't care about the way I look or dress. You never said anything. You accepted my flaws and you try to comprehend. I'm doing just the same as you. I try to accept things as it is and go with the flow, see where this path will take us to. I'm willing to try something extremely new to me because you convinced me to. You gave me the courage. And I never worry about falling. Because I know you'll be there to catch me. You'll always be with me.
Baby boo, I love you. I'm learning to love you the way you should be loved. I'm giving you all the things you deserve since the first time. I'm going to appreciate your presence and attention. I'm never EVER going to hurt you. Mark my words. If it is already written up there that we belong to each other then we do, right? I love you. I love you and..I love you. (: Forever yours,
Today was Majlis Mohon Restu for the SPM/STPM candidates of my school. The day started with motivational talks by Encik (I forgot what was his name) and Encik Suhaimi. It was very enjoyable and I'm pretty sure that my gay partner and I rocked (I mean it) the ceremony when we sang all the songs that were played, very loudly, although we were quite out of tune. But nobody cared, we were having so much fun! Plus we did chicken-danced with Encik Suhaimi! He was hilarious, we never get bored with his jokes. And he keeps saying "Do your best, God will do the rest". It kind of gets to me now. And we kind of..forgotten about the big exam day - SPM - which is about 30 days away. That's the whole point of organizing all these talks you know, so that we learn how to manage stress and what what shit before facing the final exam. The ceremony went on with Ikrar Pelajar which was kind of ridiculous to me, but whatever! Then we hugged all of our (amazing!) teachers and apologized for our wrongdoings. I was touched, the teachers actually cried while hugging all of us, wishing all the best for the exam and giving their final advises. I wanted to cry too but..naah I'm not that type! :)
Next thing! My gay partner and I went to AUG office at the Pulau Tikus Plaza and met Zac Efron..not. Haha it was Zac something, I forgot his last name. But anyway, he told us all about higher education, which was kind of helpful. Gay and I filled in the application forms for Taylor's A-Level Scholarships but then we realized that it was a huge mistake. Because we actually have to pay RM650 for it. Yes, just for the application. Big sigh. I'll come back to this topic later.
Then, gay and I went round the Penang Island. We stopped at Prangin for some window shopping and ate some fries at McD. Believe it or not, this is our first outing ever - without parents involvement. We went out before but it wasn't this great. Here are some of our crazy acts (captured with sony cybershot, ahem ahemm)..
Shaker McFries SEDAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!
When I got home, before rushing to Add Maths tuition, I called him up. Zac Efron. Eheh.
Me: Hello may I speak to Zac please?
Zac: Speaking! Who am I speaking to?
Me: Oh it's Sofea. I came over just now.
Zac: Yes yes Sofea, what can I do for you?
Me: Oh. Erm it's just that..I'm having 2nd thoughts about pursuing A-Levels at Taylor's.
Zac: Oh okay!
Me: I just want to know is it possible to do foundation in UK.
Zac: Of course!
Me: Em okay I want to do foundations in UK.
Zac: All right! Do you have any specific destinations in mind?
Me: It's the.. University of Bradford?
Zac: Oh all right. I'll just..kautim everything for you.
Me: And the course code is..B231 I think?
Zac: Oh okay. So..it's Bradford..B231. Okay I'll just..look through everything and get back to you.
Me: Okay, thank you!
Zac: You're welcome!
I love you Zac. Ahhh. You make my life a hell lot easier. :)
Yours,
Here's a secret:
I've always wanted a man as my boyfriend, not just a guy.
I mean, not that he has to be older than me. He may be a guy of the same age as me but more matured, taller (of course!) and definitely doesn't look/dress/talk like.. well, TYPICAL GUYS!
I come up with a list about five minutes ago. Ahemm. So..
10 differences between men and guys.
1. Guys say 'I miss you baby' so often, sometimes about 19 times per day (exaggerating) but men will only ask 'where have you been?'.
2. Guys are the ones who will buy bracelets, stupid love novels, cuddly stuffs etc for their girlfriends on birthdays. Men are the ones who will simply put a birthday card with a red rose in their girlfriends' bags or call them at 12 o'clock sharp to sing birthday songs.
3. Guys.. go for Converse, Body Glove, Billabong but men look up for Topman, Tommy Hilfiger, Diesel, Lacoste, Ralph Lauren and maybe.. Armani.
4. Guys will send 'iloveyou' text messages every night before sleep but men just don't. Maybe it's because of their alter-ego or they're afraid that the girls might get bored hearing them say so.
5. Girl: I'm busy, text you later. The guy: All right baby, love you, mmuah mmuah mmuaahhhhhh x1000.
Girl: I'm busy, text you later. The man: Ok.
6. Guys watch romantic films and cartoons on dates but a man would go for thrill and action movies.
7. Guys are the ones who celebrate 1st, 2nd, 3rd etc month-saries. Men don't.
8. Guys will say 'we're the best couple ever because you're amazing!', but for men.. 'we're good because.. we have each other'.
9. When it comes to interests.. guys know that their girlfriends are into Justin Bieber, Project Runway, Sophie Kinsella and maybe.. purple teddy bears. A man would know stuffs like types of women's Burberry perfumes, his girlfriends' favourite VOIR stilettos, dream cars and so on..
10. Guys always think about NOW. Men are the ones who already have plans for the future..
Trust me, I can tell the differences. I have personal experience, hahahahaaa!Ramblings by,
Kissing You - Miranda Cosgrove.
Sparks fly
It's like electricity
I might die
When I forget how to breathe
You get closer and there's
No where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me
Is frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things
I've never seen
'Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you
When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you
Past loves
They never got very far
Wall's up, made sure
I guarded my heart
And I promise I wouldn't do this till
I knew it was right for me
But no one (no one)
No guy that I met before
Could make me (make me)
Feel so right and secure
And have you noticed
I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears
I've never felt nothing like this
You're making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
It kinda feels like it's love
I'm so in love with Miranda Cosgrove, grrrr. Oh hello there! It's me. With a new blog. Yes, again. Hmmm okay I'm just so bored nowadays and I'm sick of studying, I do need distractions sometimes. This is one of the.. unhealthy alternatives but whatever. I currently found out that I'm addicted to one of the best human's creation in history which is, of course, rainbow sherbet!
I'm salivating right now.. =.=
Love,
